WHAT A DAY..

could u just imagine what i've been through yesterday... this morning found 2 email "teguran" dr atasan abt my performing this week.. he said he gets very dissappointed and i really need to concentrate by stop doing things that not related wiff work during working hour... i started disliking this guy.. before he joint  us nothing was wrong with what iam doing... done every requested without telling me how to do it.. and now he started told doing stuff by hours..i dont like it at all.. seems like i dont know how to manage my time... i think i should reconcider what everybody been told me lately.. get off from him... @ first i was really sure abt growing up with this company.. i also ready to do everything for it without asking.. altough i did get much from it but i really like the working system... and now... uhmmm i should re-concider...

and then another internal meeting... he was kind of remind me once again abt these stuff that he serious with that!! ooooowwwwwwwhhh i hate it!!! u didnt pay me enough!! then u complain abt my working hours and they way i finish my task!!?!!? its ramadhan pak!! sure i have to leave early and be with my family.. unlike u who live single@ this city!! whaaaaaat the hack! then i leave d room wiff more things that he need to be done by today.. hate him! i went off for meeting with the most highest priority partner.. and he didnt make it and i just knew when i was there!! i am screaming!!! he postphone till friday... aaaaaaaaarrrrrrrgggh.. sent one of his guy to do a demo.. but this guy not even in the office yet!! more aaargggggggggggh!!! its 12 already.. and i have another meeting at 2 with esia gals! this is must be joking.. so i complain him... and he only able to say sowwy.. and promise to do it on friday morning... huhuhu...

then back @d office... light up by some calls from my dear bear... i just dont care ne more i take his call right infront of him.. and didnt pay attention to what he said while i said "ya sayang.. " i just off from him.. and it happen twice!!! i am so happy.. right after that i took air wudhu.. and he was tried to said summthing again abt one of our client.. then he saw i am ready to pray.. the he said later again.. ehehe... happy!!! fin pray.. met the HRD gals who just abt fin pray too.. and we chit chat abt abt my team status.. how can i get there.. and who's s astro my person who gave the spot for us, what we've been doing... and since i have a high concern abt this morning stuff i simply asked her abt any available position now that ur company needs.. then she said yeah.. we need a secretary urgently .. i was thinking abt to take this chance just as a backup i dont mind working for that position for couple month coz i can see more oportunity to move to other department once i gets in... sure this company seems more stable than where i am working with now.. than she asked me to sent her my resume... i said okie..

fin praying before he could complain again... i told him the progress status with our partner.. then i remember to show me a demo abt astrology stuff that ive been doing long time ago.. uhmmm.. old same stuff with new feature... i knew it coz i am  one who made the pages and flowchart.. anyway... lucky me that esia gals finaly made it.. so the other 2 staff happy to talk to her... and he went off to pray qeqeqe.. get an order number for him and his signature on paper.. then i introduce her.. i also try to get my own since its quite cheap rate with their corporate program for IDD compare to other telcos's services... and its a wow for me.. since my current phone bill climb 3x then my normal usage 3 month ago eheheh... (*i dont mind at all, it brought me smile every single day) but still i need to reduce the cost if i wanna have summthin else like "another trip" maybe... well d point is i will get d phone tomorrow... :)

try to finish what he asked me too.. "a heaven voice" comes again.. i love it so much... and straight @ four o'clock im just went off... i dont care any more... very cloudy weather on the way home... the ojek riding was the only possible way to reach home faster since very bad jam during this hours... bad things happen again.. this ojek hit by a car.. lucky me i jump... even iam wearing a skirt still i can jump off from d ojek... he shouted at d taxi driver but i can only able to say "udah pak.. kita sama2 puasa.. mungkin dia buru2.. just take me home carefully kay.." so i am home finally safe and sound... tired... rush to sms sayang then shower and perform ashar...

then online... then break d fast.. sweepy terawih... then had a hard time again.. aarrrrrrrrgggghhh.. all i want is just ur hugs and smile.. not a sad or serious face or uneasy feelings after what ive been trough...i was very emo last night..i know it was not right.. since he was only trying to help to find a better solution... but what can i say... i am just overload and to me there's no point to share it with him now.. in my simply thinking it will made him stress out even more.. then i will only get the serious bear... and i really dont need that for d moment.. he was sad and hurt by what i said... i am sorry just couldnt help it... i can only hoping that u would understand what ive been trough.. im sorry.. and i really2 do... we fixed it very late @ night... i cant even open my eyes for sahur in d morning even after he calls me 8 time i just not woke up... so did he i bet... sowwy hunn... i've learn more things abt u from there.. tq for ur patient and care.. wuff u...